Something New
So…this morning I get a message from an artist friend who asked me and several other friends if we would be interested in modelling for “erotic/alter ego” photographs of the classy and artistic variety. I shoved any hesitation to the bottom of my awareness and said YES. Enthusiastically. And as conversation developed, I further volunteered to get completely naked for this project. Because why? I have no idea what part of my psyche was telling me to jump into this project and take it as far as possible! I have never done anything like this before. But….I think it might be about risk taking….proving to myself I can do it? Not being afraid or ashamed of my 45 year old post babies body?….who knows. I feel enthusiastic now – hopefully I stay that way. Actually my biggest fear is being enthusiastic all the way through until I see the pictures!! And then suddenly realize how old and flabby I am AND that everyone else who sees these pictures is going to see that too! I think I am the 2nd oldest woman in this group….but I guess the idea is to show real women…and provide a medium through which we can each make peace with whatever body issues we might have. We will all have input into our own pictures if we wish.
It’s been interesting how things have developed throughout this first day even….it went from G’s idea and wanting to photograph….to everyone kind of chiming in their thoughts and ideas….to deciding it should be a total art project…to now, where we have a pinterest board upon which we are all posting erotic photographs of women of all shapes and sizes in various states of undress….(almost 200 photos already as I write this!) ..and as a result of seeing who was posting what, we started talking about specific interests and questions around that kind of thing….”will anyone be triggered by pictures of bound women?” – “why is an exposed vulva so taboo in a non pornographic nude picture?” – stuff like that. This could actually turn out to be a really cool and kind of therapeutic thing, I think. Well, if nothing else it should at least inspire me to get back to the gym on a regular basis. =P